I am not lacking in motivation, but rather unsure of what direction I’m heading in. There’s plenty of day to day work on my list, but where am I heading in the big picture? What bigger goals am I working toward? I have ideas, but I lose track of where I am on that journey very quickly.
I like to practice tarot as a way of sorting through my thoughts and feelings about certain issues. My cards are like journal prompts, asking me to consider different perspectives and look for the honest truth.
When I looked at the inverted seven of cups, I am reminded of how confident I’ve always been in the major life decisions I’ve made. I do spend a little too much time wondering about how my life could be different if I had made different choices. But it’s a useless exercise. All of the good and all of the bad; I can’t take back any of the choices I’ve made in the past.
The four of pentacles has a lot to say to me. First, it seems to confirm that all of those choices have led to a fairly prosperous present moment. My husband and I have finally reached a sort of “middle middle class” status where we don’t really have to worry about money too much. We never seem to have as much as we want, but we don’t fret about the things we need.
But the four of pentacles also points to my fears. I must work through the complicated relationship I have with money. I have to address my anxiety about my marriage if we end up in a situation where the money is tight again.
Looking forward with the six of cups, my initial thoughts are about my own children. More than anything, I desire for them to grow up in a stable and happy home where they can develop memories they’ll be nostalgic for later. It also reminds me that I am not particularly nostalgic for my own childhood. I think in order to give my children the memories I don’t have from my own upbringing, I need to process and let go of those old hurts.
I’m still a beginner, so I welcome opinions on my reading. It feels nice to get the cards out this morning, and I hope to make a better habit of it.